The ins and outs of Ryan love

Well, hanging out with the girls was fun but at the same time it really sucked. Actually, it usually does. You see, our girls are very touchy feely, cuddly sort of thing. But not with Aaron and I. I think Aaron is fine with that, but it really sucks for me. You see, the only love language I have is touch. Basically what that means is that you could buy me the most expensive present, encourage me all the time, and spend the whole day with me, but I wouldn't feel loved. I only feel loved if you give me a hug or a massage, or cuddle with me. And that really sucks! Nowadays it's pretty much taboo to touch unless you're going out with the person. But basically that leaves me just hating life. That's why I usually hate hanging out with the girls. I don't really know why they wouldn't touch me much. I know I stink a lot, but there isn't really anything I can do to change that, maybe I just don't seem to be giving an invitation. It's kind of odd, because apparently it frustrates some of them that I never touch them in acting. I don't really know why. I guess I just think that touching me must be some kind of disgusting ordeal so I try not to force myself on them. Or something like that. I don't know. It just sucks.