JSYK

Heyo! This is pretty much just to clear up last post. Last post, at least the part about God, was just me being frustrated and venting, not really my thoughts, but more my feelings at that moment. I know God does care, it's just frustrating when I have no idea what He's doing and I can't see it. And trying to get close to God has been precisely what I've been doing for the past few weeks, not to mention the last twenty years of my life, and again, it was more my frustration talking. I've really been trying, but it just doesn't seem to be working. And I have been trying to fix things on my own, and the reason is that I've been asking and asking for help since the fist time I couldn't make rent, and I have consistently had to ask dad for rent since then, and I'm probably going to have to again this month. So it's kind of the case that if I don't do something, dad will have to pay, and I really really don't want to be in that position or to put him in that position. Besides, I don't think that we're just supposed to lie back and wait for God to shower us with gifts. So, yeah, I have asked and been asking, but nothing has happened, and again I'm just left with the frustration. So I really do appreciate that you may be worried and frustrated with me, but I have already done and have been doing what you suggested, with no avail. So, (that's the third so in a row!) I guess I'll just see what happens from here. I did get that job at Save On Foods, and I am really grateful for it! It just doesn't start until the 24th, so the first paycheck will be way too late to make any difference for this month and rent and such. Sigh...

Yay Internet!

It's good to be back! I finally got all the internet and cable junk figured out! Which was a huge pain and, I say again, a Huge pain! First they screwed up the order, then the date for the appointment of the guy coming to set it up, then the order again, then when the guy came and set it up it didn't work and I had to spend another hour on the phone, but it's all working now! I celebrated by watching the Minecraft show and Zero Punctuation. It was awesome! But I still don't have a job... David got me to update his website with a bunch of new pages and junk, so I'll get a little income that way, but I still don't know what's gonna happen for the rest. I'd say I'll let God worry about it, but He doesn't seem to care much at the moment. Whatever. But one thing I'm super excited about is that I can access the internet reliably, so I can actually text Grace whenever I'm home! And maybe use Fring... It'll be good I think. I don't know if there's really much else to say right now. I have some other things that I'd like to write about, but I'm gonna save them for later. Apparently I'm gonna have some free time for a while. Blech...