I see that I have not posted in here in a very long time. There have been many things that I had wished to say, but apparently they went unsaid. That is so like me it's annoying! I wish that I would just get everything out every once in a while. It's not like anyone reads this anyways! But I guess I'm just too used to keeping everything inside. I'm afraid people wouldn't like the real unleashed me. Heck, I don't know if I'd like the real unleashed me! I guess that's why I don't let much out. I'm still scared of myself. I know that there is ugliness inside of me, just like everyone else, but if I can just crush it, no one will ever know. Great logic, but life just doesn't work that way... My head really hurts...