Sigh... This is why I should never put off anything ever. I had a ton of stuff that I wanted to write about last night, but by now I've forgotten what those things were...
Well, I do remember part of it was a little bit of an analysis of myself. Those are always fun! And informative. And maybe you can learn a little about me as well! Which reminds me that I want to work on my series where I look at my pros and cons. Later.
I am an incredibly strong minded person. I wouldn't say stubborn, but that level of immovability. I am more than willing to listen to any view and learn from it, but I believe what I believe, and I believe it hard. And since I'm so logically based in my thinking, unless the other person can give me very convincing reasons to accept their point of view, I tend to safely discount it once I've analyzed it. Now, this is not a bad thing, it's just interesting, and I really like that you can't convince me of something through tears or yelling. I am able to lay aside my emotions (usually) when evaluating a view. I find this encouraging for myself because it forces me to actually make sure I understand my own views pretty well, and I believe it challenges other people to really know why they think what they do. You can call my point of view names all you want, I won't change unless you give me a good reason. And reason is not too bountiful in the world nowadays.
However, the flip side to this is that I sometimes find it difficult to engage with other people's emotions when dealing with their issues. I'm the stereotypical man in that, if you have a problem, then we should work to solve it. I don't really understand what happened exactly, because I used to be so good at this. I used to be able to easily understand and connect with people emotionally. Now I just think. It's incredibly frustrating for me, because I know I can distance myself and get a good understanding of the situation and what's going on, but I don't know how to effectively communicate it and engage in a, I dunno, comforting way, I guess. It's handy being able to see things from the outside, but it's really hard to get back in for me. I can comment on situations and I usually have something good and insightful to say, I just don't really know how to say it well. Bummer for me! Actually, probably more of a bummer for other people.
I do have more to say, but I've been struck by a wave of tiredness, so I'm going to bed. It's weird, I've been getting tired sooner than usual. It's only one thirty right now! But I'm going to turn on my speedruns and sleep. Good night.
