For Grace

Another attempt at a video. Hopefully this one works better. This is pretty much just for Grace, and I'm all quiet and such, so it might just be completely intelligible. But here it is anyways! And like I said, I did this for Grace, so I'd encourage you to watch it Grace.

Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words... words can crush my soul.

Dear God,

Hey there. It's been a little while, sorry about that. But you know how I am. Always try to figure things out by myself first. But I have a prayer. I need your strength. I'm strong, but I know I'll never be strong enough. I pray that you would give me the strength, endurance, and courage to face the challenges that I'll be facing soon. I pray that you remind me that I am living for you now. I know that I'll hate it sometimes. I'm so stubborn, but it's all your own fault! God, grant me the grace to forgive anything, and the humbleness to realize that it's not just me. I pray that you would point out to me my own faults because I'm often so blind of myself that I miss what is so obvious. But mostly I pray for courage. For the courage to face any and all of the people that will shout at me that I'm wrong, that I'm a freak. I know that I'm often full of myself and won't even consider that I might be wrong. I pray that you will be the one who shows me what is right. God, I am so so scared of what you're going to do and what you are doing to me. I'm terrified that I'll lose my control over myself and my life. I'm scared of the overflowing passion. I like my safe, sturdy passion. I like my safe, sturdy self. But you have such great plans for me. Plans to give me a hope and a future. I pray that I can share those plans with the people around me. I do love a good plan! Thank you so much for the people you've put into my life. I sometimes forget about them, but they really are a blessing. I've seen so much lately how you've blessed me. You've blessed me with money in the nick of time, with a wonderful house (though a bit crowded with all the animals...), with people that I know will support me no matter what. With a family that loves me and would step out of their comfort zones to try to understand this crazy me. But most of all I thank you for the wonderful combination you've put in me of resilience and forgiveness. Much as I've tried, I can't hold a grudge. And I know that people will take advantage of that, but that's what the resilience and people and family is for right? And finally, thank you for Batman. He's awesome.