Twilight

Hmmm... I'm watching Twilight right now. Well kinda watching and kinda not. It's kinda scary how much the main vampire dude Edward! is so like Anakin in episode 2 and 3. He actually sounds exactly the same. So fake. And he doesn't have any emotion except for neutral and angry! Argh! Although I was wrong, he did smile once that I saw. Although it was really put on. The girl isn't as good of an actor as I thought at first. Although I saw one good answer in there. I don't like that they're in the forest when she confrunts him as being a vampire. It's not real at all. She obviously wouldn't just stand there awkwardly. Lame. Well, as for Edward being "the perfect boyfriend" all I've gotten so far is be really creepy and stare all the time. Oh, there. Now I was wrong. That was a real smile. No actually that was a real smile. And it came from all the other people too. Nice. Yep. That is creepy. What is with the huge obsession with vampires lately? Hmm... I really like the guy that looks like he's in pain. Not very convincing, but funny. But then I guess that there's always gotta be some sort of fad otherwise people wouldn't know how to be cool. I wonder how they did that climbing effect. It doesn't really work, but I can't figure out how they did it. Wait, maybe they just had a rope line and pulled them up as he moved his arms and legs. That might be it. I like piano. But that's just me. I'm getting more used to recorded piano so I don't mind it right now. I JUST REMEMBERED I GOT RELIENT K'S NEW ALBUM!!! Well that was exciting! I guess I shouldn't really talk. I SUCK at acting. I really want to hit something right now. Whatever. Yep, I'm only getting creepy. So that's all you need to get a girl eh? I really hate everything right now so I'm going to stop.

Discoveries 4

Ah, another wonderful discovery in acting class. Actually this one doesn't have much to do with my understanding myself, but I guess the last one wasn't either. Moving on. It has finally clicked in me that it's not about repeating. That the exercise really doesn't matter. It's about actually connecting and really DOING whatever it is you came to do. It doesn't really matter how you accomplish it, just so long as you get it and connect. Easier said then done, but at least now I understand what I'm shooting for. Well done Ryan! Finally...

Nervousness

Hoooo man. I am so nervous for acting tomorrow! Juli and I have this great activity thing planned out. She has beaten up Carsyn for some reason (I have no idea what that is), and I've been trying to find her. The exercise is going to be in a furniture store that I chased her into. Our relationship is that I hate her guts (obviously), and she is absolutely scared to death of me. So here's the problem, I have no idea what I would do. I have no idea what I'll do when I get there. Am I there to scare er to death, drag her off somewhere, or to just beat the tar out of her? I'm really leaning towards beating the tar out of her, but of coarse that is not an option. So I'm kinda stuck. Juli was thinking that since this was happening in a furniture store, a public place, I would be more, I dunno, discrete? Hmmm... Now that I think about it, I think I would want to get her out of the public so that no one would stop me. Brrr, that gives me creeps just thinking of what I could actually do. At first I was thinking that I really wouldn't care, but I think I would have enough presense of mind to know that people would try to stop me. But really what's bugging me is that it's something in which I have an amazing chance of failing miserably. I'm still so stuck in that I need to get it right. Need to get rid of that, but it's not happening at the moment. I'll just have to keep telling myself that until it clicks. Good luck guys!

This is the picture for Aaron. He asked me if I had a mental picture of my life so I told him I'd one up him and show him my picture. Here it is. Now the tricky part is understanding it. I might decide to explain it later. But for now I'll just let it be.

Discoveries 3

Welcome once again to the wonderful world of learning how to act. I really learned the importance of doing all the background work. You have to know exactly where you came from, what you're trying to do, and what your relationship is with the other person (and I just learned that what that really means is how you treat them). Another thing is that you shouldn't use just the text to make a prep. Figure out exactly what it is that the situation does to you(or a situation like it cuz a lot of the time you would never be in that situation) and then use a really personal prep to actually make it work. Cindy got me to use the prep that Carsyn had been beaten up and was in the hospital. And that it would keep happening until I could convince Abby(Ashley) to stop. That worked SO well for me. But I'm still frusterated that, even after all of the work that Ashley and I have put into it, we still took up almost all of the class time to basicly start our scene from scratch again. And then my emotions weren't doing what I wanted and I couldn't release anything and I was frusterated and I don't like people at the moment. So there! Ok. I learned lots and that's good. That's what I'm here for so I just need to remember that. Right...

Quotes

Here's another one from Cindy. "Live life like you live in your head."
Meaning that, in acting anyways, we should let ourselves do all the things that we imagine ourselves doing in our heads. We always imagine what would happen if I did this or said that, but we never do it. In acting it's a chance to actually do what it is that goes on in our heads. Pretty cool if you ask me!